I've Witnessed My Death... Many Times!

Over the last 4-5 months I've been having some of the strangest dreams! I've heard of people dreaming that they were dying, but I've never really heard too much about people witnessing their death and going through the dying process in it. In several dreams I've had recently, I've known at a certain point, yes I am dead, but I kept on going. I never did get to witness what lay next for me. I would keep telling myself to breath, and it would wake me up!

The first dream that I had is that I was being put to death by the government. They let me free to go say good bye to my family and friends. I was at the park where I use to play high school tennis and I sat there thinking that it was sad that I was moving from this plane of existence, but I was excited to see what was coming up next. I reported as I was suppose to and had the needle inserted into my arm, and watched the poison go down into the IV. This is the end of the first dream.

The second dream involved me going to a party with a friend/co-worker. I didn't know anyone there so I just sort of watched what everyone was doing. Almost everyone was doing drugs and having sex all over the place. The next scene in my dream I'm playing this virtual reality game against this girl who pulls out a knife and slashes my throat. I hit my knees and then the ground watching the blood flow out around my head. I called for my boyfriend but he couldn't hear me. I kept telling myself to breath. Again, no fear about death. This is the end of the second dream.

The third dream involves me being with some people, none of whom I know personally, but were suppose to be friends I suppose. We were suppose to go somewhere but they told me we needed to make a detour. So a few of us went into this dark house to retrieve something (I don't remember what this was) but I was in the bedroom alone and someone came charging into the bedroom. They were wearing a mask so I couldn't see who it was (it kind of reminded me of the mask in V for Vendetta and a clown face). They started shooting at me and I hit the bed. They walked up to me and started firing rounds into the top of my head. I could feel the electric surges from my brain flowing around my head and down my neck, and I could feel my body jerking as a reaction to this. Again I kept telling myself to breath. This is the end of the last dream.

It struck me as odd that in every single one of these dreams, death was not something I feared, and instead I was excited to see what would happen next. Recently someone gave me this interpretation and I think it is "dead" on! No pun intended :-) :

Dissolution of the ego is the message here. You aren 't being killed in the dreams to show you what will happen in physical reality, obviously. If that were true, the method of death would always be the same. But you are not in fact seeing your physical death. The dreams are using the metaphor of death to suggest that you've been through the dissolution of ego. That would explain the happiness you are feeling right now in your life, too, by the way.

Dissolution of the ego means you have come to a point where you no longer seem to have a need to push for your own way. You are no longer a slave to your own desires. You feel freed from the push to satisfy some hungry inner monster. The symbol of death is used to suggest that a part of your life is gone and won't be coming back. You get to watch it in all these dreams, don't you? In other words, the dream is saying, "You saw this happening. You were a witness to it. Now don't forget that it happened and what you accomplished."

No fear is an outgrowth of the successful dissolution of the ego, so showing no fear in the dreams is your 'proof' if you must have some. That's what death dreams are all about. Interesting that you were killed by lethal injection, throat slashed, and bullets to the head. Look at the places along the Chakric column which parallel those locations. Arms -- ruled by Gemini and Mercury -- Throat, obviously the throat chakra, which is also ruled by Mercury and involves the will, persuasiveness, and communication skills -- Head which involves the Third Eye and Crown chakras, the Head is ruled by Aries, the Sign of personal self-esteem and the beginning of the Zodiac. So new beginnings and finding a new definition of Self are highlighted by that one.

There is a lot about your method of presenting yourself that has changed, I'll bet. A lot of your self-expression is different. Things you do and say have changed to bring on this new happiness in your life. That is precipitated, most likely, by a change of mind and perspective. The dream was showing you that by allowing you to see electricity and light all around the head and flowing down into the body. Your changes in perspective and perception have created all the rest of the positive changes in your life, so now you have 'died' in a sense and been re-born. The real correct understanding of Jesus' idea 'to be born again'. Jesus was a Trickster. Nobody 'gets' his message until they have already experienced it. To me, that's why it's useless. I don't want to be told AFTER the fact what I went through already. I want a manual to help me BEFORE I have to endure it all! The Bible just isn't that book!

Anyway.... your dream is about spiritual transformation and to some extent emotional maturity. Leaving fear behind and facing death without angst is a common symbol in traditional literatures which means that you've overcome that part of yourself that was too attached to an 'identity' you had going in your head. Once you leave that label behind and break out of the mould, realising that you can re-invent yourself any which way you want, you experience a kind of resurrection. Which your dreams did not show you, but the death symbol was enough to clarify what happened, so perhaps the dreams did not need to show you that.

Hope this helps,
(name omitted for privacy)

I've been thinking a lot about this interpretation. It's given me a lot to ponder. It is very true that in the last year I have changed exponentially! I'm a completely different person, and all for the better. I feel more in touch with nature and the world around me. Anyways, I thought this was quite interesting and I thought I would share!